life been pretty bad recently. and my mood hasnt been quite good either. its like i constantly feel irritated and restless. arghhh. this is not pms! well.. i guess things will be fine soon. everything seem to have quieten down. the matter is kindof over and i hope to get over it as soon as possible. i need to move on. gotta thank noel for being with me all these times when i felt uncertain and upset. i really feel much better after talking and listening to him. he's really my idol for now man! serious. i look up to him as a role model. i love the way he look at matters, the way he handles situations, the way he speaks to patients, the way he communicate with his co-workers, the way he view life...and etc etc. its really admirable :) haha. gotta learn from him man. and he really changed me quite a bit after numerous sessions of thoughts sharing and outings :)) im still quite surprised by the fact that we actually click so well so quickly! haha. i still remembered the first time when we work together and how he initiated a conversation with me. i thought this guy really knows me and he tries to understand me sincerely. i haven got someone that is so willing and keen to listen and understand me before. and we actually have an age gap of 8 years! oh my goodness. i was in primary 6 when he was in university!!! hahahahahha. thats so amazzingg! i am super uber lucky to meet such a great mentor.

its the end of september. another month has passed. and i am a little closer to my new phase of life. i am looking forward to it. honestly, i do hope to leave singapore for a change. its not that i dont enjoy the life or the company of family and friends i have here. but i am curious how i will do out there alone in a foreign land.. how life is going to be like in a new environment.. perhaps only then will i realise how great it is to be at home. (i am very satisfied with what i have now and i know i need to cherish them hard :))

late night kbox session with climbing club (huiwen, jooli and jingsheng) on thursday was fantastic! haha. love them to bits and pieces! watching taiwan drama serials with them is really amusing and entertaining :) its so funny to see how each of us react differently to a particular scene and how we critisize almost everything of the characters. hahahaha.

okay. its late and i gotta sleep. haven been sleeping well for nights and i should try to take a good rest tonight.

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

this few days have been quite a torture :(( getting a true taste of what the real working society is like. its okay its alright. i learnt my lesson and i am not going to repeat it again. and as if one blow is not enough, i got into another trouble with noel the other day. uuurggh. i should just go and die. really screwwedd upp. whats wrong with me?!?! pretty angry with myself now. filled with remorse and guilt. i need to learn how to handle my emotions better.

是我的无知伤害了你
再多的道歉也显得很虚伪
宁愿你生气的大声骂我
也不想你沉浸在失望与沉默当中
朋友，请你原谅我

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

haha. made carrot cake with lemon cheese frosting today! hmm. i donno if they taste good cos i have no idea what a carrot cake is supposed to taste like! haha..

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!

by the time you say the word 'future', it already belongs to the past

its the beginning of a new month. its september already! :)) to think i have left school for more than 8 months yet i still feel like a student! haha. time really flies.

had quite an interesting encounter 2 days ago in the clinic. haha. a super duper memorable one! i guess noel and i were really traumatised by it. okay, maybe its me only cos he is always able to pass things off calm and cool. it was a rather quiet night at west coast and he started having alot of fun chatting with chaorong and guanyin on msn using my account! oh my goooodness. he was simply talking nonsense yet he was so high about it! hhaaa. amuuusing :)

went for lunch and shopping with mama and sis yesterday at bugis. it was quite rewarding. we all managed to get what we intended to buy. (and of course buying stuffs that were not on the shopping list! haha) lunch at crystal jade was fine, not exactly that goood. wanted to take photos of the food and ourselves... but my dear camera went dead cos i forgot to charge the battery! argh. how dumb can i get. haha. its been nearly a month since i had a good meal with my mama. for 3 consecutive weekends she has been stuck at the neverending travel exhibitions at suntec! poor mama. oh and she commented that me and sis are looking more and more alike! haha. thats not a gooood news huh...

pam left this morning for canada. hope she has a safe journey! quite a pity that i cant send her off at the airport. but considering that i met her at ntu the other day and we managed to have a small chat, i think i wasnt being too mean! haha. hope to see her soon. maybe someday i can go canada for a holiday or she can go australia to look for me! few weeks more and more people will be leaving for uk. its time. time that we step out of our comfort zone and venture overseas. time that we pursue our passions and live our dreams.

spare me a sunglass to look ahead
cos my future is too bright :))

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!