Thursday, August 30, 2007 @12:30 AM
okay. change my blog layout to one of those provided by blogger simply because its so difficult to maintain a complicated one! haha. its like i want to change something but i have no idea where to start *staring blankly at the html codes for hours* i guess this simple template will be easier for me to handle! :)) okay. gotta get to bed cos its late! need to go for a run tmr morning cos I PUT ON WEIGHT due to the regular feedings by darlings like grandma and bro and besties!! oh man. thats the last thing i ever want to happen... haha
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @6:48 PM
my horlicks doggie cookies! oh man. they look damn cute :)) haha. spend around 3 hours making hundred of them. trying out new recipes that i found online recently. they taste quite good! i dont really enjoy eating cookies. pure love for baking alone. hehe
oh this is my beloved sexy timer?! haha. its super adorable :)))
oh. made these portuguese egg tarts last week! not bad. but will be better if i remove them from the oven a few minutes earlier. the cost of making egg tart is really lowwww! only around $3 plus for 10 egg tarts.
ookie. got to run. meeeting chaorong and huiwen for prata. oh man. cant wait to stuff myself with pratas! *i will try to remember that i am still on a diet...*
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007 @7:03 PM
kindof inspired to write an entry today. i was working in the clinic in the afternoon when a postman entered with a registered mail. initially we thought it was a fine for our doc (cos sometimes he speeds).. but it turned out to be a letter from SMA! (singapore medical assiociation). okay. to receive a letter from SMA out of a sudden is not exactly a thing to be happy about. and true enough, it was regarding a complain from one of our patients. apparently he is rather unhappy and unsatisfied with our doc, claiming that he wasn't professional and stuff. i shall not go into the details of what he wrote in the letter but seriously, those accusations were nonsense and they dont make sense at all. obviously i am going to stand on the doctor's side cos i think the patient is purely being ridiculous. the letter was so exaggerating! i am sure doc is not going to get into any trouble cos i believe that SMA is not blind and they will know whats true and whats not.
while i was reading the letter (doc passed it to us to read), he asked "so you sure you still want to be a doctor?" argh. i have to admit this incident is quite a shock for me. never did i knew that singaporeans can be so ridiculous and unreasonable. indeed, it is difficult to be a doctor and i swear it is much harder to be one in singapore. the younger generation that had higher levels of education are the ones that are demanding more from the healthcare workers. they read something from somewhere and they think they are very knowledgeable, attempting to challenge the doctors/nurses in their advices and diagnosis. HELLO?!?! obviously doctors dont study so many years for nothing right? i think we all need to show more respect for others (i am not only referring to doctors, i think we should respect others for their professionalism)
okay i think my doc deserves better patients and definitely more respect from them. i hope he is feeling alright now. it can be quite sad when your efforts are not appreciated and people turn their backs against you suddenly.
while there are some doctors that are respectable, there are some that i feel are not putting enough effort into what they are doing. okay i promise i am not going to be like them. haha. i shall learn from their mistakes and not make this errors in future :)
i just feel very angry for my doc. i seriously he think he dont need to suffer like this. lets hope everyone can be more reasonable and learn to honour the greatness and talent in others.
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Friday, August 10, 2007 @2:45 PM
while most if not all of my friends are busy with orientation week and all sorts of camps that dont seem to end, i have been working very hard, trying to convince myself that its okay to be out of the standard system that all my friends are in. life has been quite fine for me so far, except that universities activities are stealing my friends away from me!!! haha. its okay... we are connected by our hearts, mind and soul. hahaha.
this few months will be a good time for me to set new goals, steer myself in the right direction and perhaps reassess my values, principles and judgements. suddenly i just end up thinking if i will regret my decision now(which is to be a doctor), maybe 10 years later? will i ever end up hating this profession and detest myself for not heeding my dad's advice (to take up business)? to be honest, i am looking forward to school, which is starting in few months time, because of two main reasons. one, i get to start a new phase of life in a new place.. it feels kind of like rebirth? where everything start from zero again... and the other reason is definitely because i am reading a course that i am very very interested in! but is the passion going to last me for 6 years, 10 years, and even a lifetime? i have no idea. its a dream that i have been pursuing and i hope to live it well. but what is going to happen after i achieve my goal? its like we always hope for dreams to come true.. but did we ever consider what is it going to be like after dreams REALLY come true? i mean do we have to come up with new dreams or we can then lead a life aimlessly ever after.. haha. life is going to plain and bland if we have got no aims and aspirations... so lesson is to never stop dreaming! :)
like what chaorong said (he requested his name to be mentioned), doctor is a profession that can allow you to lead a comfortable life but its not going to make you rich. i absolutely agree with his statement (for the first time). but its okay cos my main purpose in life is not to make big bucks! haha. this profession looks glamourous and everyone will go ''oh woah..." when you happen to tell them that you are a doctor... thats when they will start to look at you differently, speak to you politely and expect you to fulfil a certain ideal image they have in their minds. but does how i look, talk and present myself determine if i make a good doctor? haha. obviously not. but sadly image counts and definitely make a big difference... at least in singapore. okay, i am trying to visualise myself in 6 years time, after i graduate from medical school... i really wonder what will i be like? but visualisations can be quite inaccurate... so i give up. what is the kind of doctor that i want to be next time? what is the impression that i want to leave on my co-workers, patients and even strangers? its a choice. my choice to be exact. but that will probably take me a few more years to decide.
frankly, its really naive for people to think that being a doctor is an easy task. especially when people go "doctor ah. make alot of money one lor, see patient for 5 minutes then write a few things and earn 30bucks already" or "wah this clinic is many people ah, doctor sure make tonnes of money one, rich like siao" haha. please la. life is more than just MONEY. haha. you are paying for the consultation, the medication and the responsibility that the doctor have to bear if anything goes wrong. its like when a clerk makes a typo error in a document, she will only get niao-ed by her boss and have to redo the assignment again. but can you imagine what happens when a doctor make a wrong diagnosis, or even wrong prescription? i really hope that will never happen to me! hahaha. okay i thinking too far! but seriously, its a super duper big thing can? there are just so many dilemmas that a doctor will have to face and i am not sure if i am ready for it. like how to attain a win-win situation for the doctor and the patient, how to keep balance your life with work and family, how to stick to your stand and principles, when to say 'i want to...' and 'i have to...'? haha. i have so many questions in mind! but i guess i will be one to have the best answer for them...
i have to admit i am changing.. changing all the time. (i mean who doesnt?) and i dont think there's anything wrong with changing as long as i am changing for the better. okay. then you will ask how do i define better... haha. but thats beside the point! so perhaps one day i will find this whole entry a crap... haha. but for the time being, this are some things that has been on my mind... there is no room for love (bgr kind) right now. but considering the fact that i change alot.. maybe it will be different next week. hahhahaha. just joking! im not so fickle-minded okay! :) i am reading alot now. trying to get my brain cells to start working actively again. haha. i guess its time that i acquire some skills that will come in handy when i start working next time. i love self-help books. they are really really interesting! afterall, i think being a doctor is not about regurgitating everything that you have learnt in medical school to your patient in that short consultation of about 5-10 minutes. its how you apply what you have learnt and get your message across effectively and efficiently. how you bring yourself to the level of the patient and communicate with them, understand what their concerns and win their trust. hmm.. okay i am inspired by the doctors around me cos i definitely feel that they are doing a very good job! :)
so.. aims/goals for the time being...
graduate from medical school within 6 years.. lets hope i dont get retained and i will try to work hard so i can complete it earlier? haha
work in the hospital for another 15 years? preferably in O&G... if not paediatrics is great too!
after i earn enough money for me and my family to live the rest of our lives comfortably, i want to join the WHO in their overseas projects in 3rd world countries...
of course during the process of all these, i hope to find a good man, get married and have kids :) haha
hmm. all these are tender to change by adeline without prior notification. who knows whats going to happen tomorrow? :)
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Sunday, August 05, 2007 @11:05 PM
im quite tired to repeat all that happen today cos i have just recounted every single detail to my parents in the car while on our way home. however, i really have to say that its been a pretty eventful day for me! alot of things is running through my mind right now and i cant really seem to be able to get them organised. like one question that noel posted to me this afternoon "so, do you still want to be a doctor?" its a simple question with the simplest answer (yes or no). but somehow it takes the hardest effort to decide. haha. love the way noel thinks, speaks and how he carry himself in front of his co-workers and patients. its a talent definitely! and i hope to have at least half that kind of flair. healthcare is definitely going to be a tough path to take and im beginning to wonder if i am up to it. haha don worry, i am not underestimating myself! but it seems like its going to be tougher than what i am expecting... nonetheless i am still confident of my future (to be exact, i dont really know what it is going to be like!) so for the time being, shall build up my interpersonal and communication skills. and get more self help books to enrich my already degenerating brain cells! haha. learning don end with school, it has just begun
who you are determines what you see
who you are determines how you see
who you are determines how you view life
who you are determines what you do
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
