i nearly forgot how to joke and smile. got through the few days and im glad that im still standing strong. guess i have been giving myself too much pressure and perhaps expecting too much from myself as well. hmm. i dont have to be the best. but im just going to do my best. people around me are so worried. hmm. my goal is still there and im still working towards it though now it means taking a longer and tougher path. sometimes i really feel that perhaps i must have done a whole lot of good deeds in my last life that i am blessed with such wonderful parents and friends. its their support that keeps me going. thank you so much. i will put on a smile and move on :)