i tried. and i fell. then i stood up and move on, believing that my last hope can come true. in the end, i fell even harder. and this time it feel so real. i got myself landed in utter disappointment. so sorry. to those that believed in me. i have let you guys down again. dont tell me its okay, its not the end, or there is still chance. cos you know those are nothing but excuses to make me feel better. i want to deal with this disappointment. i want to get over it. but seems like 3 days were not enough.