Monday, February 13, 2006 @9:28 PM
today is the eve of valentines! hmm. its quite saddening that i have no one special to spend it with this year. but its okay! i am not lonely because i have lonely hearts. haha. we are going out for dinner tomorrow after maths s lesson to cheer ourselves up alittle! haha. actually i think valentines shouldnt be that bad if i have a group of lonely hearts to hang out with right? maybe i will feel kind of different :) i mean different kind of happiness? haha. i cant do without friends! spent quite alot on valentines presents this year, which is quite weird because i dont have a valentine, technically speaking. hmm. but friends deserve to be rewarded on this special day! especially friends that are single just like me! we are not lonely! i insist! :) started wondering a few days ago about what is it that i really want out of my life. or should i say now. suddenly find myself aimless and lost. i guess this should be quite common in many of us? at least i hope it is. i have no idea why am i feeling this way out of a sudden. it definitely feels quite scary because i just dont seem to be able to relate to things that are happening around me anymore! i suddenly thought of giving up hopes of entering medical school. and i forgot the purpose of me working so hard now! its quite disturbing :( somehow i did some things that i seem to regret after that and theres no way i can turn back time! hmm. just hope everything will be fine. ohhhh. valentines is such a sad day. just hope the next 24 hours will past very quickly! :)
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
