Friday, December 30, 2005 @1:48 PM
just returned from chalet! haha. though there were only 12 of us, i think it still feels great. hey! its like sec 1 and 2 classmates huh! haha. i dont think many classes still keep in such close contact leh :) so proud of ourselves! felt more comfortable this round. at least better than the previous outing. i understand that it can never be the same. but at least i feel much better. and i hope you do too. haha. i dont think many will understand what i am talking because i donno what i am talking about too! haha. enjoyed the girls talk especially! haha. we chased the guys out of the chalet for like 4 hours and we just hang around watching tv, and talking about real close to heart stuff :) i mean thats just so sweet right? haha.
how can i ever be able to receive and accept others when i haven learn to let go of i have in my clenched fist? have been asking myself that for quite some time. i haven been able to move on because i haven learn to let go. i am just too stubborn i guess. when will i be ready to give up freedom, so that i can receive something better. someone once told me "you can never be happy if you continue like that - afraid to let go of emotions that have been pulling you backwards" or maybe i am just unsure of my next step. thats why i chose to remain here. for so long. can i start again. can i?
maybe it's better this way
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
