Saturday, December 31, 2005 @1:54 PM
i guess i just freaked my mum out. bad. somehow just fainted at home this morning. luckily i was at home man :) my head still hurts coz i hit the floor hard. haha. hope nothings wrong with me.
i am so bored. sudden craving for starbucks oreo cheesecake. haha. shall go eat with my sis. haha. got to ask her first! cant wait for school reopen. miss school so much.
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
@12:33 AM
i am so tired. but i cant seem to get to sleep. i started crying. and i have no idea why.
tell me whats wrong. please
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Friday, December 30, 2005 @1:48 PM
just returned from chalet! haha. though there were only 12 of us, i think it still feels great. hey! its like sec 1 and 2 classmates huh! haha. i dont think many classes still keep in such close contact leh :) so proud of ourselves! felt more comfortable this round. at least better than the previous outing. i understand that it can never be the same. but at least i feel much better. and i hope you do too. haha. i dont think many will understand what i am talking because i donno what i am talking about too! haha. enjoyed the girls talk especially! haha. we chased the guys out of the chalet for like 4 hours and we just hang around watching tv, and talking about real close to heart stuff :) i mean thats just so sweet right? haha.
how can i ever be able to receive and accept others when i haven learn to let go of i have in my clenched fist? have been asking myself that for quite some time. i haven been able to move on because i haven learn to let go. i am just too stubborn i guess. when will i be ready to give up freedom, so that i can receive something better. someone once told me "you can never be happy if you continue like that - afraid to let go of emotions that have been pulling you backwards" or maybe i am just unsure of my next step. thats why i chose to remain here. for so long. can i start again. can i?
maybe it's better this way
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005 @7:09 PM
11.30am
fatfat mum: eh. what are you doing?
me: sleeping lo.
fatfat mum: huh? still sleeping ah.
me: uh huh. why?
fatfat mum: i went to see doctor leh. got mc
me: why flu he also give mc?
fatfat mum: donno leh. he give then i take lo
me: orh.
fatfat mum: come out shopping with me leh.
me: -___________-"
mummy's so funny! then met her to go shopping again! and the first thing she told me was "eh. call grandma to tell her that if anyone calls to look for me, say i am sleeping!" haha. with such a wonderful and 'guai' mother, how can i not be 'guai' !?! haha
last year. this day.
i thought we were and will be the happiest
i am sorry.
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Saturday, December 24, 2005 @6:13 PM
something's definitely not right with me.
i need to find out why!
arghx. need to get over this as soon as possible.
this cant go on forever!!!
give me strength. i need to move on
lots of thanks and hugs and kisses to jingsheng, juli and huiwen! had a great time at holland village starbucks and all the encouragements! especially to jingsheng! thanks for bearing with me all this while. you are definitely the best belayer on earth! but i am not too bad either. haha. really enjoyed the times together! i am comfortable with just the 4 of us. can we go on like that? haha.
when i cried,
i am not scared. i am just disappointed
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Monday, December 19, 2005 @7:38 PM
haha. finally back from hk! :) kinda missing my doggy now! haha. nothing much to update coz basically i spent most of my time either shopping or playing with doggies. haha. managed to find out new shopping places which are damn cheap! haha. next time i shall not go far east to shop coz i know i can get them 3 times cheaper in hk! haha ;) okay. photos! only me and doggy actually!
haha. me and my sleeping darling!
she's trying to run away from me!!!
dinner time!
darling and my new toy! haha
she sleeps like a baby! :)
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Sunday, December 11, 2005 @10:05 PM
haha. i am still in hk now! :) haha. just had steamboat for dinner and it was great! i mean like its cold and you feel so warm! haha. know what. i went groceries shopping with godma yesterday and we spent like $1000 leh. gosh. its like $250 sing dollars! haha. damn fun! going shopping tomorow. exciting! haha. dont worry people. my doggy is fine and very fine. though her eyes are getting bad and she cant see very clearly, but she's still so cute! she keeps banging into things! and sometimes she have to walk along the walls to get somewhere. haha. shes just so cute :) oh. she's getting more zhuai! haha. food that dropped onto the floor, she refused to eat! and when we bring her to the new house, she protest by pee-ing everywhere! haha. if not she will just sit at the door, telling you that SHE WANTS TO LEAVE!haha. love her so much! haha. shall upload her pictures when i get back :)
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Thursday, December 08, 2005 @5:03 PM
the rule for working out prime numbers is really simple,
but no one has ever worked out a simple formula
for telling you whether a very big number is a prime number or
what the next one will be.
prime numbers are like life.
they are very logical but you could never work out the rules,
even if you spent all your time thinking about them.
i am leaving tmr morning :) i am missing my darling doggy! haha. cant wait to see her!!!
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005 @7:28 PM
went for sc chalet at downtown east yesterday. haha. met up with jas, cy, zhimin, xinyu and jason at city hall first. haha. long time since i last met up with my fellow council mates! haha. though the chalet was quite and just a little boring, i still enjoyed it! haha. i think its just the people that makes me feel comfortable! :)
left quite early this morning for kayaking at paddle culture! haha. had alot alot alot of fun :) haha. serious la. the sea was quite choppy and it feels damn good to ride over the huge waves! haha. there was one super huge wave that came towards us and we just rode over it! its like for that split second, you are in the air with your paddle and your kayak. oh. and we took cyclones instead of our usual ocean kayaks which made everything much more challenging :) haha. after our expedition ended, some of us stayed back in the pool to practise eskimo roll! haha. its like so damn hard la. we have to like do a hip flick and then a high support brace. woah. and i have yet to master my half roll leh. nevermind. soon i will be able to roll and roll and become a swiss roll! haha :)
i need some darkening facial cream. haha. my face just doesnt get tan and my arms are getting dark. haha. its like so weird! coz my face and arms are totally contrasting :) i am still happy though.
-last christmas
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Saturday, December 03, 2005 @8:46 PM
grow old with youI wanna make you smile whenever you're sadCarry you around when your arthritis is badAll i wanna do is grow old with youI'll get your medicine when your tummy achesBuild you a fire if the furnace breaksOh it could be so nice, growing old with youI'll miss youI'll kiss youGive you my coat when you are coldI'll need youI'll feed youEven let ya hold the remote controlSo let me do the dishes in our kitchen sinkPut you to bed if you've had too much to drinkI could be the man who grows old with youI wanna grow old with youthis is such a nice song! haha. someone sang to someone on their wedding :) so sweet right? heard this on the radio and i really like the lyrics. how true and sincere. haha. camaraderie
-a spirit of friendship
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
Friday, December 02, 2005 @10:14 PM
i'm BACK!!! haha. finally i am back! its been like such a long long long time! haha. went 2C outing today :) had quite some fun though i didnt kayak with them. slacked around la since its only like 1 hr? haha. enjoyed the chatting and gossiping sessions with them! i think it just feel so great :) maybe i am just gossipy. whatever. left earlier to rockclimb then. met up with jingsheng first then went to climbadventure since i expect the others to be late la. haha. and now theres this bump on my leg! pain man. initially it was a dent but now its bulging! haha. i was trying to swing to grab a rock when my leg knocked into the corner of the wall! but bouldering is still fun :)
i am going to take SAT tomorrow and i dont feel prepared at all. haha. i am dead. i am like so dead can.
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